Watch your way then, as a cautious traveller,

and don't be gazing at that mountain or river in the distance,

and saying, "How shall I ever get over them?"

but keep to the present little inch that is before you,

and accomplish that in the little moment that belongs to it.

The mountain and the river can only be passed in the

same way; and, when you come to them,

you will come to the light and strength that belong to them.

- M.A Kelty

A lovely lady in her old age said that the only thing

in her life she regretted was the time she had spent worrying.

 I have to admit

I spend a great deal of time with worry and regret.

In my mind, I run through past scenes when Gaye

was present and dwell on the loss

and worry that life will just never sort itself out.

I worry the hollowness and emptiness within me

will never be restored.

I worry about how I will survive important dates?

Birthdays, Anniversaries, Holidays.

These will be difficult times

and there will be others I don't anticipate.

But as with the mystery of life,

I have no way of knowing what will befall me,

I like to believe it is Love, Relationships and Loss

that defines our lives.

Whether it be full of Passion or Pain,

or perhaps a mixture of both.

Nothing can fill the gap when we are away

from those we love...

We must simply hold out and win through...

It is nonsense to say God fills the Gap;

he does not fill it, but keeps it empty so that

our communion with another may be kept alive,

even at the cost of pain.

-Dietrich Bonhoeffer

It is strangely reassuring,

that the pain of that empty space will always be with me.

While I do want to feel better, I do not want, ever to forget
the love we so blessedly shared and experienced.

Accepting that fact,

Perhaps It's time to loosen my reign on

Worry and Regret