My Special Christmas Gift....

Here we go, another Holiday season. For the first time in the LGW (Less Gaye World), I have put up a Christmas tree and actually decorated the house. It is a beautiful tree with all the trimmings that Deacon and I are quite proud of! Could this be a sign of healing?  Of course,  I still shed a tear most days.  But the tears are ones of great feeling and emotion and I mean that in a very positive and constructive way.

Because of Gaye,

I have come to understand, appreciate and fully envelope

Love and Compassion.

I read the below quote often to remind me of the love I shared and the blessing I had....

"Grief can destroy you --or focus you. You can decide a relationship was all for nothing if it had to end in death, and you alone. OR you can realize that every moment of it had more meaning than you dared to recognize at the time, so much meaning it scared you, so you just lived, just took for granted the love and laughter of each day, and didn't allow yourself to consider the sacredness of it. But when it's over and you're alone, you begin to see that it wasn't just a movie and a dinner together, not just watching sunsets together, not just scrubbing a floor or washing dishes together or worrying over a high electric bill. It was everything, it was the why of life, every event and precious moment of it. The answer to the mystery of existence is the love you shared sometimes so imperfectly, and when the loss wakes you to the deeper beauty of it, to the sanctity of it, you can't get off your knees for a long time, you're driven to your knees not by the weight of the loss but by gratitude for what preceded the loss. And the ache is always there, but one day not the emptiness, because to nurture the emptiness, to take solace in it, is to disrespect the gift of life."
— Dean Koontz (Odd Hours)

I like to think that is Gaye's present to me for this Christmas,
 Love and Compassion.

I couldn't ask for a better Gift!!!!

Two perfect Christmas Gifts
Gaye had just completed a Stem Cell transplant the day before this pic
which had kept her in the hospital for over 20 days.
It was a wonderful Homecoming.