In the face of adversity we are not permitted to ask, "Why me, why Gaye, why not me?" You can ask but you won't get an answer. We hunt so passionately for an answer. We Pray, We Meditate, We look for signs, we gaze high up to the sky, We reach deep down into the soul for meaning and understanding.

There is No Answer Given!

So I reflect and think maybe there is a reason for no answer given in Life and not knowing the answer. Perhaps it is up to each of us to work through the loss to get to a plain or stage of existence/awareness where we would never have achieved without this dis-juncture of the universe. I certainly have a whole new perspective and appreciation of life and the most simple of "things" that before took so much for granted. Where does that leave me today and how do I move forward? I look to Gaye for answers. Throughout her life, Gaye maintained a True and Honest heart. Gaye would expect no less for me. "He (or she) has a good Heart" Gaye would many times say when meeting folks she dearly liked. With a true heart and the emblazoned incorporation of Love, Hope and Faith, that Gaye had instilled in me, what more do I need to fight in this less Gaye world? What a tough way to learn this. A tough love life lesson from God and Gaye!

The late Gilda Radner summed it up poignantly: "I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing - Life is about having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it without knowing what is going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity."

Amen Gilda -